.Thursday, February 09, 2006 Y
'tis another day..
i think i'm suffering frm some kinda split personality or smth. which is kinda scary.
y do i say so? cos i'm updating both my livejournal and blog at the same time. and my livejournal a/c? dun c it. nobody shld c it. it's almost like a suicidal account, for those pple who are optimistic abt every shitty thing in life. tt's y i've nvr given anyone the name of my a/c. so i guess it's gonna be more private there, than over here, in blogspot.
my blog's much more cheerful. be happy u're reading this, not the other one.
lunch now~ boring as usual. i dunno how can it be tt even lunch is boring. e colleagues tt i've eaten with for the past two days haf to go for some course thingy. which includes lunch and if i'm not wrong, it's buffet style. they said they'd invite me, but i can't reli bite n chew. so haiz, im stuck here updating my blog in the office. when no one's around except this boring old guy. he's e onli guy in the small office and he doesnt seem to tok at all. so no pt trying to talk to him. not tt i've even thought abt doing tt. haha
funny. i was hungry. then i bought sandwiches. (yes, i can finally eat smth tt's slightly more solid tt disgusting porridge.) but actualli porridge isnt disgusting. not e one tt my mum/maid cooks, tt is. moderation in life. tt's y i'm sick of porridge now. come on, i've had it for like, a few days in a row. give me a break.
anw, it's egg sandwiches. ya can't reli venture into ham i guess. but oh well i'm thankful. so, i was feeling quite hungry. but aftr eating juz one sandwich i felt full. in other words, im hungry but with no appetite. and i dun think it's the porridge. nor the food. i guess smth's wrong with me.
terence told me once, you're gonna go wrong one day.
cos i told him tt i thought sex was disgusting. come on, it reli is. to me, at least. aftr all im onli 18.. *sweet, innocent look* so ya. he says one day sex is gonna be the onli thing i think of. cos he believes in moderation. i mean i believe in moderation too.. but ya to me, sex is still disgusting.
i'm so tired! i've nvr been so tired for a long time. not even when i was standing the whole time when i was a cashier. weird, huh? i think it's the journey i haf to take back n fro every day. bus 858 is terrible. do not attempt. esp in the morn. juz yst i got a free ride cos when the bus doors open, there was absolutely no space in the front. only at the back doors. so when i got in and tried to tap my card.. error! oh well. not that im complaining, now tt i haf to pay adult fare and all. yups.
e old man in the office's gone. to the toilet i suppose. or to finally haf some human conversation with someone else other than the pple in the office. i thought i was finally alone in the office. at least, for abt, 5 secs? then another boring lady came in. she's reli nice. but sometimes reli slow. haha ok i know im mean. but im not in the greatest mood today. so cut me some slack.
is this wat it's like to work in an office? i reli dun mind the work. or doing piles and piles of work. i kinda like the idea of sitting in an office. at ur
own desk. well i emphasize
own cos i'm rite now sitting at the scanner table. it has a computer that pple use for scanning purposes. im supposed to be sitting upstairs, then i'll have a table of my own. not tt i'll be able to decorate it though. (damn!) anws, as i was saying, i dun mind like staying back aftr work to do stuff. haha i noe im weird.
oh half an hour more till work starts. mb i'll grab another bite of the sandwich i bought. it's not nice, btw. plus i can't reli bite yet. so yups, double misery for me.
no make tt triple. with an unknown misery tt onli me myself shld noe. n will prob ever noe.
i guess tt's y terence said, 'u dun let anyone get near u n know or understand u; u practically build a wall around urself'.
i dunno. mb he's right.
