oo feels like i haven't blogged for the longest time!! been busy with work. but i dun think many pple knw tht i'm currently working alr. decided to get my butt off the couch (though it most prob is my fav activity - juz lazing arnd; smth i can nvr write in resumes when they ask for my interests/hobbies. muahaha) and work tht ass off to get some money. haiz. i'm getting the money (though not much, i dare say), but i'm not exactly working my ass off. i'm actualli moving my ass frm the couch at home.. to the less than comfortable (by my stds, anw) chair in the office. and i'm still doing the same thing though at diff locations - sitting arnd.

seriously, i'm doing my work slower than i usually do, and somehow i'm afraid my brain will start adjusting to tht slow pace, and mb eventually i'll get alzheimer's!!! ok so i'm exaggerating, but hey, tht part time job spells nth but shit-work. it's juz mindless filing of reports (no analysing whtsoever) and mindless sorting of stuff according to alphabetical order. (and somehow i get the feeling tht my boss feels tht even tht is too much work for me. somehow she doesnt find it in her to believe tht 'voila, the temp staff's not so dumb aftr all'.

haiz. give me some work, for gdness sake. and i'm not crazy. seriously, if this continues, i dunno why i didn't opt for staying at home, on my wonderful and comfortable couch which doesnt give me constant backaches, watching cartoons. u knw, juz peacefully rotting at home.

well, at least the pple there aren't tht bad. they're reli nice, in fact. and i'm like, the quietest one arnd there. with the least work, i bet. a few days back i thought tht all of them were somehow like me - doing mundane, day-to-day same old tasks, and tht the boss should be the busiest and i feel, has the most fulfilling job. but today i saw tht my boss was onli checking and printing and replying emails the whole day. haiz. i can't say who's got it worse. really.

can u believe it? i'm waiting for 6.15pm (yeah, weird timing, i knw) to end. every day since i started work on last friday. and the backaches can get reli bad. during and aftr work.

haiz. oh well,gotta convince myself tht it is, erm, all worth it! *secretly sobs while tucked in bed* haha nah i'm juz jking. oh well, gonna watch my last show of the day - actualli, my onli show of the day at 11pm. 'the magicians of love'. thought it was the last episode when i missed it last week, but guess there should be more episodes to come. hooray~~

and to 'cheer' myself up, i'm coming down with the slight flu. took dad's super effective flu medicine and hopefully it can make me a bit drowsier (but onli aftr 12am, when my show ends) so tht i can get to slp better. been having fitful slps these few nites even though i've been dead tired. hey, u try waking up at 6.45am every morn and c how YOU feel. er, i mean for girls, not for guys in army. muahaha. anw it's mb juz cos i'm a pig. heh.

i hope to update with gd news next time. if only i had fairy godparents. btw, 'fairly odd parents' is my fav cartoon. haha

P.S. gonna dress up a bit nicer tmr. well, i always believed tht if u lk gd, u feel gd. right, ladies? *winks*

now.. onto misc things.

You Are 66% Perfectionist

You are a true perfectionist. You are both demanding of yourself and others. While it's great to have goals and standards, they don't need to be sky high!

somehow i like being a perfectionist. muahaha.

You Are 60% Happy

You're definitely a happy person, even though you have your down moments. You tend to get the most out of life, though there's always some more happiness to be squeezed.

tht's gd to hear..

You Are a White Rose

You represent youthfulness and purity. Your vibe: Sweet and heavenly Falling in love with you: is like falling in love for the first time

my fav rose~~ i mean, my fav flower = tulips la, but roses are nice, too. esp white ones. and come on, it's not every day tht somebody (or rather, some test) tells u tht 'fallng in love with you is like falling in love for the first time'. i mean, how sweet can it get? :)

ok. moving on to love stuff. (decided to categorise my results since i'm uber bored.)

Your Birthdate: May 8

You love being in love... so much so that it's very hard for you to be single. Unfortunately, it's difficult for you to stay in love over time. Too many people intrigue you! Only your true love will be able to keep you interested over time. Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2 Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 3 You are most compatible with people born on the 8th, 17th, and 26th of the month.

actualli i dun reli believe this one. i mean, how many pple are born on the same date la.. u mean, all of us haf the same fate? tht means tht there's someone out there tht's almost like me. hmm. tht's a scary thought. to me and mb to my frenz. muahaha.

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is high. You find it easy to be devoted and loyal to one person. And in return, you expect the same from who you love. Any sign of straying, and you'll end things. Experience Level: Your experience level is medium. You probably have had a couple significant loves. And you may have even had your heart broken. But you haven't really dated a wide variety of people. Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is low. You are an eternal optimist when it comes to love and romance. No matter how many times you've been hurt - you're never bitter. You believe in one true love, your perfect soulmate. And if you haven't found true love yet, you know you will soon. Independence: Your independence is low. This doesn't mean you're dependent in relationships.. It does mean that you don't have any problem sharing your life. In your opinion, the best part of being in love is being together.

Your Love Style is Agape

You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner. Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare. You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie. Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you. For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

i like this one.. aftr all, who doesn't like being called 'caring, kind, and selfless'? (nvm tht it ain't all true. muahaha)

Taurus - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: You tend to stick with relationships - through the good and the bad. You are a great listener and tend to give valuable advice. Cautious and careful, you never jump in recklessly... saving yourself from heartbreak. Your negative traits: Money is very important to you, so much so that it's a cause of arguments in relationships. If your lover isn't loyal or attentive enough to you, your eyes start to wander... You tend to keep things inside - so your partner may not know when or why you're upset. Your ideal partner: Is stable, serious, and ready to be committed to you. Is successful and able to provide you with the lifestyle you crave. A true romantic, who is willing to express their desire for your heart. Your dating style: Comfortable and traditional. You'd love to have a nice meal at a cozy restaurant. Your seduction style: Love comes first for you before you'd even think of intimacy. Traditional: you're not a cold fish - but you're not into kink either. Pleasing... you always make sure that your partner is having a good time. Tips for the future: Be willing to change your mind. Who you think is the love of your life may be very wrong for you. Try listening to your mate. While your stubborn streak is hard to break, sometimes your partner knows best. Lighten up! The first months of a relationship should be about fun, not intentions. Best color to attract mate: Pale blue Best day for a date: Friday

i swear, taurus isn't the best horoscope to be. the first word tht comes to pple's mind when they think of taureans is: stubborn. *rolls eyes* i mean, i'm not THT stubborn, rite? (ok dun ans.)

Your Love Element Is Fire

In love, you are a true listener and totally present. For you, love is all about feeling more alive than you've ever felt. You attract others with your joy and passion. Your flirting style is defined by your strong ability to communicate. Fun and play are the cornerstones of your love life. And while your flame may burn too brightly, it's part of your appeal. You connect best with: Wood Avoid: Water You and another Fire element: will likely burn out quickly

thx to naf (or rather, no thx to her), i got hooked onto blogthings. haha at least, for the morning, so it ain't so bad. i bet she's been doing it for, like, gdness knws how long. hahaha juz jking eh, naf? heh. :P

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

not bad. this one's quite true lei. haha i didn't reli expect much of blogthings, to be totally honest with u. and speaking of honesty...

You Are Very Honest

You tell it like it is, no matter what. Even if the truth hurts, you'll dish it out. And while some may get hurt by your honesty... At least everyone knows where you stand!

muahaha. i'm VERY honest, u hear? (though i doubt so myself.) wht a facade i've created for myself. hahahaha.

here's another one tht made me haaaappppyyy~~

You Are 19 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

i'm still 19~~ haha (shut up, sangee)

on top of tht, i'm super pure.

You Are 88% Pure

You're so innocent, it's almost like you're not human. Taking this test is probably the naughtiest thing you've done in a while!

You Are 83% Pure

You're so pure ... you make a nun look like a whore! There's a lot of life's dark side left for you to experience... if you want to.

haha. these blogthings reli knw how to make pple feel happy, huh? somewht deluded, but hey, who cares, rite? hahaha.

mm-mmm. at home now (went out juz now), and there're nth like drinking a hot (not warm, mind u) bowl of soup aftr a nice, long and soothing bath. :) it's the life, really. and the chicken soup muz have some yummy-licious herbs in it cos it tastes superb. or mb it's juz becos everything lks and tastes and smells nice aftr being relieved of high heels. i swear, those things will be the death of women. short and/or vain women, i may add. BUT.. there's absolutely nth wrong with being short and/or vain. haha since i'm one myself. both short and vain. muahahhaa.

i realized smth today. i reli do love drinking soup and eating soupy stuff. for eg, i nvr did like fried noodles. haha.oh well.

haiz, i missed my fav show. and i suspect (actualli i'm quite sure of it) tht it was the last episode tht i missed. haiz. BUT nvm. wht i did and where i went and who with was so much more worth it. yummy. haha dun ask me why i said 'yummy'. tht was the first thing tht came to my mind. MUZ be the chicken soup. muahahaha.

ooo bought myself nail polish. yes, again, and aftr the bowl of delicious soup (which is not reli delicious now since it's getting cold), i'll get myself a well-deserved self-manicure. well, dun ask me why it's well-deserved. it's juz self-consolation, dun u get it? ;)

oh and anw i hope i get the job tht kenneth recommended - the one selling toys. i nvr did like sales, but i dun mind it this time. mb becos i'm desperate for a job, and i'm sick of being bored, i want the money (and tht's y i'm desperate for a job), and it sounds fun selling toys. haha. and the pay's not bad.

he's being such a dear for helping me find two jobs in a row. the first one.. i'm still hearing frm them, but judging from the no. of applicants before and after me.. well, i'm making a safe guess by saying tht i did NOT get the job. oh wells. i've done my part lking for jobs. now it's up to the jobs to come pick me. heh.

P.S. i learnt smth else today. i knw myself. i knw i definitely do not deserve the best. and today i learnt tht even though i dun..

i've found someone who truly believes tht i do.

yay pirates of the carribean coming out soon! cool~~ i'm still bored at home, but thx to hui min, sangee and anny, i spent a great day yst and today with them!! haha stayed over at hui min's house and we watched the two parts of the trilogy for hannibal. it wasn't as scary as i thought. it was gory for some parts, understandably, but the rest is reli quite interesting, not to mention intriguing. it makes u ponder, wonder, and think abt why things are happening the way they do and wht would happen next.

and anthony hopkins does the most.. mysterious thing with his eyes. like.. they see rite thru u. piercing eyes, i do believe tht's wht they're called. and it can be scary. haha now i'm gonna watch hannibal rising. i'm still slightly confused over which movie comes first, but i suppose 'red dragon' is the very first, following by 'silence of the lambs', then lastly 'hannibal rising', even though hannibal rising is supposed for the explanation of why hannibal lecter becomes a cannibal.

hmmm.

oh anw i'm kinda excited. i havent had a decent family outing for a while, i think. i mean, we go out for dinner and everything, but tmr, we're going to sentosa!! yay!

hopefully i get a tan, and it stays tht way. without me getting freckles, or too much of it anw. i mean, a bit is cute. but too much? hmm. mb not. haha ;)

i dun think i'll ever learn how to fly.

running and keeping pace with life is hard enough.

there are many diff kinds of pple in the world.

those who are meant for great things.

those who are meant for other things.

the first lives to fly in the air; the second, to roam on the land.

if two shld ever meet by chance, no one can tell or knw if the land creature will ever learn how to fly. or if the sky creature will ever learn how to walk.

or mb.. juz mb.. they'll meet somewhere in between.

(though i haven't yet figured out how that can happen)

haiz. i'm so bored. i hope the recruit express person calls me soon. i need smth to do. :S

hmm i realized smth - tht sometimes wht we think is best for the person may not be the best aftr all. it sounds easy and logical the way i say it and the way you read it, but if u think abt it, i'm sure there're times when you've said or done things tht u think would be best for the other person, but in actual fact it's not.

and in the process, you find tht it may be 'worth it' to be the one sacrificing certain things. but in actual fact there's no need for such a sacrifice, cos the only thing tht'll prob come out of it, would be the slight noble feeling you'll feel, before feeling miserable with the decision u made for the other person and the decision tht the other person has come to accept.

an example would be if your best fren decides to emigrate to somewhere far far away from you. obviously wht u want would be for ur best fren to stay rite where you are and therefore nth shld change, rite? but u dun want to be 'selfish' and u decide to tell ur best fren to go ahead. in the end, your best fren may/may not want to go in the first place, but becos he/she respects ur decision, he/she goes ahead with it. and in the end, you (and mb ur best fren too) may regret tht decision made, which ironically was made in the intention of being the best decision for either party. same goes for you and your loved one, if either one of you decides to go overseas.

so i guess wht i'm saying is: it's ok to be selfish once in a while. aftr all, we're all only human.

whew. got 2 interviews down for today. one at tampines (wth la, so far) and the other at orchard. gotta make it in time. cos the prior one'll be at arnd 4.30 and the latter at 5.30pm. aftr which, i'll need to go down to boon lay for meeting at ntu hall 15 seminar room. i can't believe it. it's a meeting at 7pm and they've made it so bloody far. haiz. life sux sometimes. if it doesnt end by 9pm, i wouldnt give two hoots abt it and i'll juz leave. my personal pact.

haiz. i need to get money. fast. need to earn more. so need to mb find more than one job. of cos, tht is wht i said. i had to practically drag myself up the couch to make a phone call to recruit express. and u knw these agencies, the commission sometimes can be.. well, some things are better left unsaid. but oh wells, juz give it a try ba. need the experience anw. have worked as various positions before - cashier, waitress, admin. mb now it's time to do smth related, like handling accounts. which is pretty funny, i think, if they ask me wht experience i've had with accounting. i'll be like, 'er.. one year? of studying accounting? er. well i can balance cash flow statements, erm mb 1 out of 10 times. so would you hire me?' and i'll even add a 'pls' at the back for good measure.

haiz. money money money. disgusting, filthy notes that no one can do without.

oh. and i need to lose weight.. LOSE WEIGHT!! argh. i swear i'm undergg some quarterlife-crisis or smth.

oook. everything's still in korean. uh-huh. dunno wht's gg on.

speaking of korean, i accidentally stumbled upon my collection of korean dramas in my laptop. i put them in like, at the start of last semester, which means, aug 2007. haha but i didnt realize they were there until recently - i had totally forgotten abt them. and they take up so much space, i need to delete them before my comp hard disk crashes. haha so now i'm trying to watch all of them so tht they wun go to 'waste', u c.

now i'm watching this show called 'tian guo de shu' (some tree in heaven thingy la - by direct translation). haha it's actualli quite weird to stomach initially. nth gross. it's juz tht it's abt a guy and girl getting together to be step-siblings cos the guy's father married the girl's mother. get it? so anws, as typical as all these shows can get (dun ask me y i'm still watching such shows since they're so typical), these two fall in love. and well.. it's kinda weird cos it's like.. bro and sis? hello?? but then again, seeing as the guy is, u knw, c-u-t-e (haha), i realized tht nth much is wrong la. anw they're not related by blood wht. it's juz tht pple arnd them will lk at them differently and tht they'll be subjected to judgement etc etc. so it's a simple qn (as usual) of whether love can conquer all.

relationships - be it with ur father, mother, boyfriend, girlfriend, friends etc, are so bloody hard to maintain. there are many things that can help boost relationships, like sharing secrets (and of cos, in turn having those secrets kept wherever they are). but there are even more things that can destroy relationships.

one such factor would be the infamous time. time slides away so fast when u're spending the time with someone u like or love (like, duh). but the problem comes when time comes between you two. i guess wht i mean is, a lot of break downs occur becos too much time has occurred without much interaction from both parties. then something goes missing, juz tht neither party knows wht it is. and somehow tht missing element goes to lead to bigger issues and problems.

it's like having a long-distance relationship. i knw tht modern tech is now fantastic. but come on, we're human beings, not robots. i dun believe tht two pple can get by juz as fine without physical interaction. and i'm talking abt the BASIC physical interaction, thk u v much. it's like those normal.. hugs, kisses, pats on the back - basic reassurances. without those, skype or any other such comm tools will juz be.. comm tools. they wun be the communication tht either party needs.

get wht i mean? think i'm babbling.

i'm so bored. i haven't even done my CV yet. procrastinating like nobody's biz. but hey, it IS nobody's biz. hahaha :P

oook. how come everything is in korean? i mean, i do like korean, but hm.. i can't READ it!! i can't understand it. xian.

oh well, hope tht it'll be fine ltr. a bit cuckoo at the moment, but it's ok.

i realized tht the world doesnt revolve arnd juz one person. even tht person IS me. ok tht sounded a tad.. self-centered. not a 'tad', actually, but 'very'. but well, all in all, it didnt go as well as i thought it would. as in, lulu's chalet was fun and all, but.. i guess smth was missing. mb the most impt person wasnt there so it felt kinda.. empty.

but it's ok, we saw each other yst the day before alr, so.. :) it's ok. hmmm.. anw, it was kinda boring. and i was the onli eating my bd cake, cos it was late when i got back - my sis was alr slping and my brother was kinda sick and tired. my parents were tired, too. so.. oh wells.

anw, guess wht? i'm kinda scared of getting older. cos.. i dunno. i used to be lking forward to growing up cos the freedom comes with the increased responsibility i'd haf to shoulder (esp since i'm the oldest. *rolls eyes*). but now it feels kinda scary.

i felt it yst, on my bd. but now it feels ok. haha haiz. i think mb i'm too bored at home le.

so i need to find a job. haiz. i think need to start writing my CV. damn xian. dun feel like doing any work. feel like... nua-ing. haha

all i can say is.. i've learnt my lesson.

next sem, i'm so not gonna bring so many clothes to hall alr. max one suitcase, and it shall remain tht way. haiz. so many bloody things to pack!! plus the books!! oh my~~ when will i ever finish packing?? oh, and next sem onwards, no more fridge. seriously, it's juz there to collect dust. i hardly use it, i realize, since the canteen's like, juz downstairs and the enthusiasm of putting ice cream in the fridge has faded away since i realized tht the fridge may not keep the ice cream solid aftr all - and i haf no idea why.

AND it's such a bloody hot weather!! having my lunch now. and aftr tht i need to continue packing my stuff, get a few large plastic bags and stuff my clothes into at least 4 of them (not including the original suitcase i brought with me when i first came to hall), and then get some more plastic bags to stuff my food (instant noodles, mostly) and my utensils into. my gdness. and the fridge and the books.. i'll leave it to my mummy to decide. when in doubt, turn to mummy; she always has the answers. er, most of the time, anyways.

ohhhh watched phantom of the opera yst.. soooooooo soooooooo nice!!! it really was worth the money and all, watching them perform live on stage and wowee the stage effects really blew me and i bet most of the audience away. there was this huge chandelier and with a few mere strings they uplifted it into mid-air, letting it hover above the audience for the rest of the show. my goodness. really damn nice.

but then again, it's damn good money, too. haha

to those that have made it happen - you knw who you are - thanks, and i love you.

so much so tht i dunno wht i'll do without you in my life.

thanks a million. :)

yay!

i'm gg to watch phantom of the opera on thurs~~ the REAL phantom of the opera.. opera! haha not movie!! yay!!

can't wait.

absolutely can't.

besides, i realized tht as i grow older, my temper seems to not get so short any more. but i've become more and more impatient. is this the way things in life balance themselves? kinda cool. but still, could've given me due notice. (even though i dunno wht i'll do if i knew when i was 14 tht this day would be happening to me. i'll be like.. 'uh-huh. er. cool/freaky.'

haha gg to go take a nap le. gg out ltr at nite. juz came back frm shopping with naf then ltr i gotta meet naf again. haha cos her dad gg over to her hostel at NUS to bring home some stuff since she probably wun be staying in hall next sem. ltr gg to meet her in holland v at 9. so gonna take a nap first. feeling kinda tired, AND my feet hurt. honestly, shoes are the ultimate enemies of women. (to me, at least) but then again, u can't stop buying them.

WHY?? :P

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