hm then we finally did our nails. i didnt noe had to book first la. so many pple waiting to do their nails. so i've thought abt it. haha mb i'll go learn the skills and art of manicures and pedicures and open up my own shop. haha ya rite. ;) hm.. did this roses pattern. not bad la. elegant lking. though i prefer my previous gold one. haha ;)

hm gg out tmr. yay~ nth to do at home anw. but muz start finding another job. dun wanna be like a pig for too long. haha ;)

went to this clinic to apply for clinic assistant de. but then my fren who's alr working there was like saying, 'muz reach the clinic by 6, u noe'.i said, i'll try. but then they apparently are worried abt whether i'll stay in hostel. i dun c wat the big deal is, reli. so wat if i do stay in a hostel? the clinic's in yishun. i can always go back home n slp de wat, aftr my shift at the clinic. rite anot? weirdos. then the doc said accountancy's a busy course. come on, u dunno me. u dunno how i cope with my responsibilities.

then they went on n on abt all the stupid rules. sheesh. give me a break. it's either a yes. or a no. if it's a no, watever. if it's a yes, gd for u. *rolls eyes*

hm now im thinking.. shld i reli go for accountancy? hm is this wat i reli want? lking at figures all day long, working till late at night every day, working even on wkends..? hm i'm not sure at all.. reli not sure.

Kinda lose your sense of time
'Cause the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide
Gonna tear you up inside

You hope she knows you tried
Follows you around all day
And you wake up soaking wet
'Cause between this world and eternity
There is a face you hope to see

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

You've been walking around in tears
No answers are there to get
You won't ever be the same
Someone cries and you're to blame

Struggling with a fight inside
Sorrow you'll defeat
The picture you see it won't disappear
Not unpleasant dreams or her voice

You know where you've sent her
You sure know where you are
You're trying to ease off
But you know you won't get far
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
But you can't hear those words
And now she's up there
Sings like an angel
Unforgivable Sinner

+Unforgivable Sinner+
=Lene Marlin=

hm im feeling ok today.

except tt it rained over at yishun today. heavy rain. n my feet were wet thx to my open toed heels. n out of all the things i hate, bad manners and dirty, wet feet rank pretty high of the list.

but other than that, it wasn't raining in changi, nor tanah merah, so all's well. ;) my feet are dry now, at least better than it was in the morn, so im not feeling so disgusted by my own feet now.

haha if u're wondering y im rambling on abt my feet.. well i oso dunno. haha im juz bored i guess.

taking half day's leave tmr. hope it rains in the afternoon, when im at home and sipping latte. haha yummy. i guess tt's y im in a pretty gd mood today. cos i'm taking half day's leave tmr. wanted to take full day de, but my boss wants me to do smth ma. put some self assessment test online and live so tt learners (i.e. cabin crew) can assess and do it. muahahha. tt test's my baby~ im so proud of myself for doing it all by myself.. the test questions, the objectives, the online settings, the email, the everything. haha ;)

n my headache's not so bad today. it's still there, on and off, but it's not as bad as it was yst. yst my head felt like it was abt to burst. i told my mum abt it and she was like, 'oh no, u've got migraine like me'.

technically it's not possible, is it? are migraines hereditary? genetic? i didnt noe tt. i hope it's not. i certainly dun want migraines. but i like headaches when they're related to stress. kinda. haha cos tt means im actually stressed. ok, nvm im rambling and watever im saying juz sounds weird. so ignore me there.

haha muz be the caffeine (tea) i consumed this morn. had starfruit juice these two days cos of my sore throat. n trust me, starfruit reli reli helps if u haf a sore throat. heals it in no time. ;) but since the weather was so freaking cold today n my throat feels so much better, i'd decided to get tea instead.

hm thinking of changing my blogskin again. haha oh well, better go hunt for one before i get bored of this current one. but im not changing my music, tt's for sure. i love it too much. ;)

i've been slpy these few days. wonder why. so i slept at 9 plus yst night. haha feel better now, much more awake. but i could still do with a little more slp. haha wonder how much is 'a little more'. ;) hm oh well haiz. im bored. again. no worries. today's wed. ok, so i'm left with thurs, fri, next tues, wed and THURS!! then im done with STC (SIA Training Centre) le.. or i could quit on wed. haha ;)

5 more days left before my freedom!! need to go down to chong pang soon to fill in my resume though. if not the clinic hire someone else then there goes my permanent part-time job. haha ya it's called permanent part-time becos i get to continue the job even aftr i enter uni. but got one mth of training la, which i oso get paid (however measly the pay is at $4/hr). haha but aftr i enter uni (rite now im wondering whether i should choose ntu or smu), i can work in the clinics at night. from 6 to 10. then again, i wonder if i get to reach there in time to work lor. esp if i go into ntu, i'll be staying in the hostels for the first yr. haha hopefully i get to share with my cousin. hear tt, shirley? ;)

oh well, i'll think abt tt ltr. aftr all, sch starts in aug. which seems like an awful long time from now.

so, abt smu or ntu. haha a small part of me wishes that smu would NOT accept me. haha a very small part of me, tt is. cos if they dun accept me then i dun haf to choose. haha aftr all, btwn NUS and NTU, i most prob (95%) will choose ntu ma, so no issues there. but ntu and smu.. close fight. haha wonder which one i should go to, if i'm 'lucky' enough to be picked. :)

YAWN. damn im slpy. supposed to be doing work de, but oh well, i shall finish keying in date from this super thick file by tmr. then i'll get the new file from jane by end of tmr. she wun be in office for fri, since she's leaving for australia to take a look at her accomodations. she should be leaving soon in july, if im not wrong, to take her masters degree in finance or banking or smth lidat in sydney. cool, huh? she's asked me whether i want anything from there. so sweet of her lor, but i can't think of anything i want from there anymore.

akemi kumagai's back!! so cute! got a fantastic greeting from her earli in the morn. heh.

aiyo.

rebonded hair is soooooooooooo hard to maintain. esp for hair at my length la.

terrible.

haha. but i like it. kinda.

stupid irvin la. make me wait and wait this morn. ARGH.

juz now my boss came n asked me, wat did u do to ur hair?

i said, ya, i ironed it.

then he laughed so loud the whole bloody office could hear him la.

irritating.

now i'm supposed to do this email draft for him. to notify learners at SIA abt this self assessment test that I made. n i'm supposed to make the email draft FUN. haha oh pls, it's a test. how fun can it get la. aiyoh.

k. gonna go find jane le. if not she run away again for some meeting. so boring la, life. thank gdness my contract's ending soon.

labour day. can't freaking wait for it. =)

noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

tom felton has a gf!!!!!!

argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this cannot be happening to me~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

this is honestly the worst day of my life.

not to mention there's ZERO chance of me getting my contract extended again.

AND not to mention there's ZERO chance of me getting into ntu.

AND there goes my life. ZERO chance of survival.

thx life. i love u.

haiz. just heard frm darell tt two of her frenz alr got acceptance letters from NTU. wat abt me?? yst i got a missed call from this unknown no. haiz, was so happy, noe. thought tt it'll be ntu. but then i called the number today n found tt it was only the dental clinic, calling to confirm my apptment tmr. sheesh, like tt's impt now. haiz. i hate feeling like this. seriously. like my options are so damn bloody limited la. like i have to sit and wait for them to choose me lidat. so pathetic. like meredith toking to dr. shephard (which chose his wife in the end anw, so wat's the bloody pt): "pick me. choose me. love me."

ok so mb not the last part of 'love me'. doesnt apply to uni. but the first two phrases do. yes. pick me. choose me.

this is stupid.

damn bloody hell stupid.

There's no time for us
There's no place for us
There's no chance for us

It's all decided for us
This world has only one sweet moment set aside for us

When love must die

Touch my tears with your lips
Touch my world with your fingertips

+Who Wants To Live Forever+

katharine mcphee rocks, man. playing her song in my mp3 over and over again. the live version of that song. but too bad it's shortened. ;) haha i dun reli noe wat the song means la. just bits and pieces of it. heh

haiz. work is so freaking boring at times. at ALL times, really. haha hm got this whole file of facilitator assessment forms of sort to key into excel spreadsheets. tsk. so much work. disgusting. haha

i can't wait to grow up sometimes. but i dread my bd with each coming yr. mb i'll dread it till i have tt someone special to spend it with each yr. haiz oh well. back to work~

saw this cute guy's photo today. actually, many other cute guys, other than the one on top. ya i noe.. a bit too girlish looking, rite? but ya, tt's e way i like my guys! haha oh wells. he lks a bit like tae, don't u think. mb tmr i'll upload another photo. of another guy. haha anw found this pic from friendster. not tt i noe him la. just link link link then found his pic lor. haha.

he's m'sian though. i just know it. there aren't cute guys like this in singapore lor. fat hope.



stupid la. had an argument with my mum. my bro used the comp for like one and a half hours, and even before i got home, he was using the freaking comp alr. n then aftr i took over, he said, i need to print smth. ok. so i gave him another half an hour. and guess wat? i dunno where the hell that half an hour went, cos he didnt freaking print his stupid sci notes. like he's so studious all of a sudden.

then my mother commented on how stubborn i was and how i was so like my dad and blah blah. come on, juz bcos u had an argument with dad earlier on doesnt mean u can rub ur grievances in my face. n then she raised her voice and said how i nvr give in to my younger bro etc.

u noe wat. it's times like these that i wish i didnt have a younger bro. i mean, like it helps having a younger bro lidat. he doesnt even do anything tt concerns me. he's juz wasting space and air. seriously. n then aftr my mum nags until the cows are alr home, i was like, 'fine then use the computer'. and my bro acted all bloody innocent and said, it's ok la. i dun need the notes until tmr.

oh u noe wat, mr angel. i dun think any amt of notes is gonna get u anywhere.

so forget it, y dun u? quit. trying.

seriously.

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! y is it always my bloody fault? bcos he's more insecure? he needs more care? oh to hell with that.

one day i just might fall. and break. and slam myself so hard down on the ground. just to see how all of u would react.

i'd love to c u wash tt bloody stench off your hands.

i'm tiiiiiiiiiiiiiired.

n my hair is in a M-E-S-S. so.. weird looking today. can't even tie it up properly. n i look pale today.

well, ya paler than usual la.

*yawn*

haiz. i hope i've got enough value in my EZ link card for the trip home. honestly, i had made elaborate plans to top up my card yst aftr work. but i clean forgot abt it. or rather was too distracted too rmb.

i don't believe this.

it's all becos of draco malfoy.

and dun ask y.

still, draco malfoy rocks my socks. along with grey's anatomy. =)

this is so. not. fair.

how can ryan be on MC until 7 may? my last day's on 4th may lor. wat a lousy bd gift i'm receiving. haha oh wells.

i'm so bored la. even though i have work to do. haha same old work again. damn. one thing i hate abt work is the office politics. sometimes it feels like u can't really breathe. or rather, you just have to know how to breathe the right way without attracting unwanted attention. damn it.

lking on the bright side of matters, i got a fantastic, funky-looking manicure! thanks marie, i owe u one. =) yup. thinking of gg there (bugis village) once every two weeks to get fresh manicures. haha guys will nvr realize how satisfying it is to look at ur nails n just sigh contentedly. then again, thank god they'll never realize that. gdness knows wat the world'll come to. haha

i was in a rut the whole day yst. esp aftr the class outing. the one that flopped so badly i felt like i did smth terribly wrong in my past life to deserve it. seriously. out of a class of 23. only wat, 10 turned up?

i mean, wat the hell?

seriously. plus i heard tt xiaojun, one of my classmates, scored an interview with NTU. for the same bloody accountancy course. shit. then wat am i? pig feed? hello~ where's MY interview? i didnt ask for her grades cos ya, it'll be so weird n so kiasu looking la. so i kept quiet. but hey, i'm sure she did better than me. haiz. how come?? no, not how come she did better than me. she works harder, so she deserves the grade. but seriously, i didnt do too badly either. so the question is:

where's MY interview?

this is horrid. the horrid, ugly truth of it all. i didnt do gd enough.

and tt sucks.

really.

sometimes you're juz so in pain

that all u can think of

is that u hurt.

it's time to move on.

with my life.

it's not painful.

it's hard.

i already know what to do

that's why it's painful.

love
be still

love
be sweet

don't u dare
change a thing

i want to photograph you with my mind
to feel how i feel now all the time

say that you'll stay
forever this way
forever and forever
that we'll never have to change

don't move
don't breathe
don't change
don't leave

promise me
say you'll stay
we'll stay
this way


i'm tired.
and i know
i'm doing this
to myself.

make it stop.

i know one day i will.

one day.

maybe it's best.

that we stayed this way.

i had a dream abt u last night.

i dun understand why.

every dream abt u is bad.

i dreamt tt u were shot.

u can't imagine how my heart broke last night.

so boring la. i'm like, doing work for this bittergourd faced woman la. seriously! she's always pulling such a long face. n she's nellie's gd fren.

haha. figures.

birds of the same feather flock together.

aiyo~ got pie~ i just had lunch la. P H Tay bought pies for those pple tt didnt attend the lunch thingy, which was on the day of my interview. i.e. the day when i took half-day's leave. so i didnt go for the lunch lor. which was v gd, i heard. anw. i'm bloated la. better hide the pie somewhere first, in case she sees it n hurts her feelings. haha

yucks. so oily la.

hm.. luckily jane's such a nice person. she gave me the url of this website which has this game. haha quite fun la. but even tt gets boring aftr a while. hm she was like, so secretive abt it la. 'come, come i show u smth. but cannot tell pple i teach u one ar.'

haha so cute la.. my idol at work, other than kelly ng. haha

argh my eye hurts. kinda red. cos of my contacts la, as usual, must be nvr wash properly or smth. but wearing my new glasses now. they dun lk half bad la, so i guess they're ok. haha so today all 3 temp staff wore glasses today. heh n natalie's new glasses's purple, too. light purple, though. haha so cute la.

See, you're with her
Not with me
I hope she's sweet
And so pretty

See, you're with her
Not with me
Oh how lucky one man can be
Oh how lovely it must be

When you see her sweet smile
Don't think of me
When she lies in your warm arms
Don't think of me

And it's too late
And it's too bad
Don't think of me

+Don't Think Of Me+
=Dido=

I thought it was over, baby
We said our goodbyes
But I can't go a day without your face
Goin' through my mind

In fact, not a single minute
Passes without you in it
Your voice, your touch, memories of your love
Are with me all of the times

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best, why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul, let me let go

I talked to you the other day
Looks like you made your escape
You put us behind, no matter how I try
I can't do the same

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right, I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road

The lights of this strange city are shinin'
But they don't hold no fascination for me
I try to find the bright side, baby
But everywhere I look, everywhere I turn, you're all I see

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
If this is for the best, why are you still in my heart
Are you still in my soul, let me let go

Let me let go, baby
Let me let go
It just isn't right, I've been two thousand miles
Down a dead-end road

+Let Me Let Go+
=Faith Hill=

got a warm welcome this morn by the stupid security guard la. cos it was raining super heavily on monday, and theresa gave us all a lift on her car. so it was impossible to exchange our temp passes for our I/Cs at the pass office. i mean, hello, there's practically zero shelter there. so we decided to exchange our passes the next day instead. n lucky me got a day off on tues, so today i was walking towards the STC building n the guard stopped me. 'you know you're not supposed to bring the pass home rite?'

'ya. but it was raining heavily the other day so i couldnt exchange the pass.'

(ignoring me) 'i think this isn't the first time alr.'

'it is.'

(ignoring me. again.) 'this is the last warning, ok.'

'ya.'

turning my back against him, i was like muttering, 'ya ya watever.'

oh come on. give me a break. it's juz a stupid pass!!! who would steal tt. yucks. it took every fiber of my body just to stop myself frm rolling my eyes at him la.

hey, juz becos i'm a temp staff doesnt mean tt i need to grovel at ur feet, n just becos there's no one else who has a lower position than u to do so. *rolls eyes*

anw, today was the SMU interview thingy. haiya, think i sucked la. but oh well... nth much to be said now anw.

american idol's getting more and more boring. seriously. i haf nth against country music, but at least choose smth more upbeat? or at least, interesting? i mean, tonight, paris was the only outstanding one la. n i dun even like her. haiz.

stupid ryan mou chee keong. everyday come so late. then wat am i supposed to look at on the freaking long bus journey to work?? plus he goes home super earli everyday, so wat am i supposed to look at on the freaking long bus journey back home??

damn slacker.

then again, can't reli blame him la. how interesting can a bit of clicking get? well, tt's wat he's doing now ma. cos he's grounded staff, so there reli isnt much they can give him to do. besides, his neck was reli red today, i felt so sorry for his skin condition la. wanted to scream at nellie who complained that there were too many grounded crew around. stupid lion queen.

anw, i was saying, his work might be even more boring than wat i'm doing, so ya, i reli shouldnt be complaining.

but i'm not grounded crew!! haha so i haf every right to complain. *grumbles*

oh btw, i happened to stumble upon his account at SKIES, the official SQ website. hm, k la i confess. i didnt happen to stumble upon his account la, i searched for his name. hahahah hey i'm bored, as i said. wat else is there to do, reli?

but anw, the pt is... it's his bd tmr!!!

O TANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU!!

oh which means happi bd, congratulations.

in case u were wondering, he's turning 31 this yr.

hahaha

hm listening to 'mizerable' by gackt now. damn nice. wonderful violin music as background. wonder if he played it himself. haha

but i can't get this song outta my head. 'the three little bears'. sung by both song hye-kyo and jung ji-hoon (aka rain/bi) from 'full house'.

haha those who have watched the show should know wat the hell i'm talking abt ba. wonderful, cheery song, esp when rain sang it. =)

yes!

new blogskin!

nice? nice?

the music's super nice la, i think. haha it's frm 'full house'.

haha so proud of myself la. figured out teh html codes and everything else by myself!! i needed my cousin's help for the previous skin n html codes.. but i dun wanna disturb her this time cos she's reli busy.. =)

yay~~

oh well.

i've agreed to another mth of work at SIA. oh wells.

haiz. well at least my mum'll be happy. so tt's considered gd news i guess, since tt means she wun nag at me. n i wun be bored at home either. though i can't imagine why being bored at home would be worse than being bored outside. i'm being paid to get bored. haha how dumb can one company get, reli. oh well, i'll play along then. haha

oh then i get a break tmr. one day's break. cool, huh? =P so yeah, it ain't all tt bad. (yeah, rite, who am i trying to kid.) sorry, my conscience talking.

anw, another gd news is tt...i got shortlisted for an interview with SMU. hm i wonder if all applicants who applied for SMU got an interview.. logically, tt wouldnt be possible, would it? gdness knows how many applicants they'd have to see. hm. but oh well who cares how they choose their interviewees. haha but anw becos of tt i haf to take leave on thurs as well. hahahaha. happy sha la la!

ok in case u're wondering y i'm still extending my contract when i obviously hate it so much, the answer is: i oso dunno lei. haha probably becos i still havent decided what to do aftr this job. supposedly aftr today la, since i'm supposed to be at SIA for my last day today. besides, i'm too lazy n tired to apply for other jobs.

hm. it's raining. damn.

i dun have an umbrella!!! how!!

i haf jap class today!!! how!!

i'll only get home at around 6.45pm!!! how!!

it starts at 7.30pm!!! how!!

oh well, i'll manage.

hm thinking of a new blogskin. saw one tt's reli nice, but forgot to save the URL la. now i can't find it. damn.


look at our picture
see how we smiled
on tt day

i know i can be a little stubborn sometimes
a little righteous
and too proud


i just wanna find a way to compromise
'cos i believe that
we can work things out


All I know is I'm lost without you
I'm not gonna lie
How am I gonna be strong without you
I need you by my side


If we ever said we'd never be together
And we ended it with 'goodbye'
I don't know what I'd do
I'm lost without you


I keep trying to find my way
But all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you


How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
I am so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind


My bed's so cold at night
And I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right
No I'm not too proud to say


+Lost Without You+
=Delta Goodrem=

You're just so predictable
In every way
I want you to know
I know your game


It's so unbelievable
how you never change
you won't get away
with loving me


you're just so predictable


I run
You say you won't give up the chase
You say you'll follow me anyplace
So you can make the same mistakes


+Predictable+
=Delta Goodrem=

argh.

i bloody hate myself.

one more mth of this torture.

ok. brain-storm time.

DISADVANTAGES
1. one more month of torture~~ (oh did i mention tt alr?)
2. one more month of boredom.
ok so those two literally mean the same thing.
3. rushing for jap classes again
4. not being able to catch 'so you think you can dance?' n other such crappy nice shows
5. one more mth of waking up freaking earli

ADVANTAGES
1. one more month of adrian n ryan n natalie n jane n darrell n theresa. n did i mention adrian n ryan? haha provided ryan remains grounded, tt is. hm.. i'll be evil for once n pray tt he gets grounded for at least one more mth. anw it's not gonna make a huge diff. hahaha
2. one more mth of gd pay
3. one more mth of free internet


oh no~~ the disadvantages are more than the advantages~~ hm so now it's time to consider whether adrian and ryan and natalie are enough to make up two reasons instead. haha

anw newflash, i just went to luanne's table and they said tt there might be a policy that might prevent extending my contract. hm. harry ang said, 'but tt doesnt make sense wat'. luanne: 'SIA doesnt often do things tt make sense.'

haha touche, touche.

so now. let's just wait n see. i wonder wat'll happen.

watched full house~~~~~~

so cute~~~

jung ji-hoon~~~~~~~~~~~~~

in other words, Rain. haha yup the south korean actor.

oh the show so super nice la.

haha not to mention his figure. haha but tt's not the pt, obviously.



haiz, mr ang juz came by.

'u want to extend ur contract?'

what????

ok, so i didnt actualli say tt to his face, but ya, tt's how i felt.

a mixture of happiness and u noe, yucks. haiz. i haven't given him my answer yet.

the most dreaded question of the yr i tell u.

haiz.

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