i'm so bored. waiting at the quad now, waiting for some dumb ass to return back frm hall and take over my 'shift' of waiting at students activity centre (SAC). juz realized i need to get back to hall by 6.30pm for the subcomm recruitment thingy. no wonder i had a feeling i was forgetting to do smth today. thank gdness my other welfare head fren msned me abt it. or else i'd be the lost and confused welfare head.

speaking of welfare heads, i juz realized tt i've got more than a few commitments gg on rite now:
1. Block Rep (of cos)
2. Welfare Head of Freshmen Orientation Camp (FOC) 2007
3. Social SubComm of Junior Common Residential Committee (JCRC)
4. Welfare SubComm of CO Training Camp 2006
5. Impresario SubComm

oh. my god. i juz rmbed tt i was supposed to hand in a form declaring my length of stay in hall. if i dun hand in tt form by today they'll juz assume tt i'm onli staying till 30 nov 2006. omg. how??

OH. NO.

WHT IN THE WORLD HAVE I BEEN DOING WITH MY LIFE?

all right. here's a post specially dedicated to guys. girls, juz take a lk at it, if u want, and haf a gd laugh over it. becos, reli, no matter how much we can deny it, some of the following stuff mentioned below are actually very true. and to guys, this is for those who are sick of the antics girls haf up their sleeves. sick and tired of them, but yet not sick and tired enough to go for guys instead. so here are some facts and tips for u and pls pay attention if u dun want to be left on the shelves. oh, and before i continue, i'd haf to say yes, most of it comes frm personal experience, be it gd or bad.

1. When girls say they dun mind u doing smth, 90% of the time she means yes she actualli does mind u doing that. most of all, watch out for her facial expression when u decide to go along with watever she 'doesn't' mind. if it changes, hurry up and tell her u're jking within the next 3-5 seconds. or else, u're screwed for the next 3-5 hours. and guys, if ur gfs hide their emotions v well, gd luck, cos u seem to be screwed as well.

2. Moderation really pays - it doesnt pay to haf too much or too little of smth, one of which is jealousy. when a girl keeps mentioning a guy's name straight in ur face, dun give her the crap tt u trust her and therefore wun be jealous. becos girls (face it, girls) do like a little jealousy in their men. tt shows them that u care, no matter how warped a theory u guys think it is. but pls, not too much jealousy or u'll find her being mad at u for being too possessive.

3. Don't try to make her jealous.

(yes, rite now guys muz be thinking in exasperation, 'girls.' so read on if u want to. more not-so-stunning-nor-surprising facts coming rite up. (becos somehow i noe that guys noe some of the stuff mentioned here, but either they choose not to care, or they pretend to be dumb. the only situation they wanna be dumb in and not risk denting their male ego.)

4. pls, guys, dun forget abt birthdays and anniversaries and impt dates like those. i, for one, dun believe tt guys haf terrible memories. i believe tt guys haf selective memory instead. if not, y is it tt some guys can nvr rmb their gf's bds but can rmb the cheat codes to games? makes no sense to me.

5. PMS. the word tt most guys dread. sometimes when the girl scolds u for no reason in particular and it's not happening for the first time, it's most probably PMS. at this time, u haf to learn to master the skill of not listening yet understanding at the same time. to put it simply, u shld juz listen to the girl (no matter how irritating she might get) and take pt form mentally. in case she asks if u were listening to her the whole time. but in all fairness, it reli ain't easy for girls to haf cramps almost every mth. and the cramps hurt, believe it or not. oh and btw, females haf a higher threshold to pain than men. mb not physically, but hey, as they say, mind over body, rite? ;)

6. Flowers. When a girl says she likes a particular flower, she reli means she likes tt flower. pls dun take it as though she juz likes that flower more. if she doesnt like tt particular flower, the more straightforward girls wun even keep the bouquet. or she mite even throw it in ur face. and so, pls rmb the flower she likes. tip: flowers usually does the trick, esp if u're running out of time and need to get her a present urgently. but pls, not juz in three stalks. i'd smack u for her.

7. Waiting. If a girl asks, 'i'll be running a little late. Would u like to make a move first?' major minefield. always say, 'it's all rite, i'll wait.' even though you yourself are running out of time. becos when a girl runs out of time, to her, it'll always be a more impt reason than when u run out of time. :)

8. When she asks if u'd like to meet her frenz, be glad. 'cos tt shows she's proud to haf u as her bf. so always say yes. no worries, u can always make up some dumb excuse ltr on.

9. Likewise, if u ask her to meet ur frenz and she declines, juz drag her along anw. she'd make up some dumb excuse if she reli doesnt wanna go. but the pt is tt, at least u insisted.

10. Always rmb: girls are somewat like politicians as well as the japanese. they rarely say no. (but when they do say it, it's up to u guys to find out if she reli means it.)

hm.. didnt end up watching death note in the end.

in fact, didnt even watch anything. cos too late le, plus a lot of things to study. hm. oh well, i'll juz wait for the dvd to come out then watch it at my own leisure. aftr exams. quite disappointed. but haiz, wat to do. exams coming.

hm.. juz 'finished' obd case report today. 'finished' becos it's only slightly more than half way done. but oh well, we're meeting again on thurs, so hopefully we'll get everything done by then. then all i'm left with is the mkting case study, which is abt mac's. whew. 2 more wks till the torture ends. 2 more wk till sch and lessons end. then one more wk aftr tt to the exams. the dreaded period of every semester - the finals. sigh. i guess tt's wat everyone's working for, now, huh? whoever said tt uni life's much easier than previous yrs of schooling or whoever said tt once u get past jc, u can get past anything in life deserves to get a hard kick in the ass.

aftr udpating my blog i still haf to do my stats and econs tutorial. but to think abt it, these two tutorials are like, one of the first few tutorials i actualli attempt to do. quite the slacker, aren't i? hm.. i dun quite understand, with all the case studies and projects and case reports and tutorials and presentations, where do they expect us to find the time to actually sit down and study in peace? we're onli humans, aftr all, and dun haf godly powers. nonetheless, we haf to cope like we haf multiple limbs and brains. sigh.

it's tough. no one ever said it was going to be easy, or so i've heard frm someone. but no one ever said it was going to be that hard. and if i hear one more time abt how accountancy and business students haf easy lives (esp frm engine students), i'm juz gonna say..

go shoot ur ass off.

i'm so happy for her.

so happy for u, naf!!

ignore my last post.

pls. do fall in love. it's a wonderful thing. :)

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble
I'll never fall in love again

I'll nvr fall in love again

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia
After you do, he'll nvr phone ya
I'll nvr fall in love again

I'll nvr fall in love again

Don't tell me wat it's all about
'cos I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains
The chains that bind you
And that is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you give your heart?
You get it all broken up and battered
That's wat you get - a heart that's shattered
I'll nvr fall in love again

I'll nvr fall in love again

What do you get when you need a guy?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion
I'll nvr fall in love again

I'll nvr fall in love again..

=I'll Never Fall In Love Again=
+Emma+

WHOOSH!

mkting proj..

SUCCESS!

A+!!

WHOOSH!

haha i'm so glad and relieved and not to mention happy that it's all over now!! now, all i have left are 2 stats case studies, mkting case study, obd case report. plus all my tutorials so far and all the reading up of the 4 textbks. wonderful. aftr the final exams, i can finally take a relaxed breath without wondering what's going to happen in the next step i take.

i feel tt im lagging behind by a mile. ten miles, to be exact. but i can't stop now. and i can't fool arnd with my life no more. so even though i find the stuff im studying terribly boring and weird, i wun give up.

my aunt told me that if i wanted, she'd help me arrange to work for at ernst and young over the hols. hm. interesting. she also said that she'd try helping me get ernst and young for my PA (Professional Attachment). tt's like, pulling strings, ain't it? somehow it feels kinda weird. cos i've always thought that one shld nvr pull strings to get wat they want. they shld do it thru their own means. of cos, even if i do get recommended, my grades haf to pull me thru, so i guess tt's not so bad.

argh. brought my mkting textbk home to study sinc ei've got a tutorial qn and case study presentation coming up this wk and next wk, but my aunts and uncles came over to my house today and they're all clacking away with their voices and the mahjong tiles. so of cos, i can't reli concentrate with all tt noise in the backgrnd. but i'm gonna try studying at least a bit later. or else i'll be running out of time (not that i'm on time rite now). cos when i get back to hall tmr evening, i need to do either obd (case report) or stats case study (which i haf to hand in the results to angeline this sometimes irritating tutorial mate) by monday nite. but i guess it's not so bad cos i dun haf lessons on monday.

monday nite. speaking of which, i'm supposed to go for co prac in the evening cos of this performance coming up for the nanyang awards, where professors (i think) claim awards on that day. but i dun think i'll be going. haha. as usual. this time, i reli do haf something on (be it impt or not). i need to go for a fren's bd party. happy bd, philip. (though he prob wun be able to see this) happy 21st bd, to be specific. he invited the whole lot of the FOC peeps to his house at bishan for a bd party. cool! hopefully there'll be cute guys there. (oops!) ;)

anw the party starts at 7pm, so i can't possible go for co prac at 7.30pm, am i rite? haha but i'm such a gd girl tt i've requested to go for self prac at an earlier time slot. so now my sectional leader needs to ask if they can get the keys to the room earlier than the prac timing. self-prac would be much better, i reckon, since i hate the sectional teacher. she picks on me all the time!! i've always been either the teacher's pet, or somewhere in the middle. nvr someone who was being picked on. so technically she's the first person to do so. and i hate it. she pin-pts me for no absoltue reason at all. it's like, others may make the same exact mistake or worse, but all she asks them to do is to try again. she doesnt raise her voice at them like she does with me.mb it's becos out of all the string instruments, mine is the onli one she can't play. therefore, she's taking her frustration over her incapability out on me. fine. watever.

anw i'm always the onli person playing my instrument cos the other super pro girl always doesnt come. so i'm super lonely. i hate this. it makes me lose interest in co. and i hate that.

haiz.

moving on to the brighter things in life, i shld be watching 'death note' on monday nite!! tues morn, rather, since i plan to catch the midnite show!! cool!! death note at midnite. hopefully i dun get too freaked out by it. juz like how im freaked out sometimes at night when i walk the streets alone. thx to someone who scared me with freddy krueger (no not the windsailing guy). you know who u are, and u jolly well feel guilty abt it. =P

watched 'the prestige' yst nite. i surprised my mum yst by gg home by myself on a friday night, since usually i go home on sat afternoons aftr giving tuition. but i didnt give tuition today. plus i got an A+ for mkting proj (YES I GOT AN A+!!) and my classes ended earli (since i didnt go for afternoon lect which ends at 4.30pm). so i went home. when i got home, my family was abt to leave for a movie at northpt. so i tagged along!! haha even though i was tired, damn tired tt day. i dozed off before the movie started. but once the movie started, i was quite awake. cos the movie is rather gd. real gd. it's abt two magicians and the show almost has nth to do with the title. unless u watch the movie itself. it's called 'the prestige' becos there are 3 parts to a magician's act and the last part where pple watch and clap thereafter is called 'the prestige'.

hugh jackman and christian bale are both great actors and i think tt show deserves an award. i mean, if brokeback mountain made it, i'm sure 'the prestige' will make it too. hahaha

mb i will run away.

becos i feel like screaming.

shouting.

bellowing.

crying.

sobbing.

becos it's heart-wrenching.

saddening.

upsetting.

terrifying.

maddening.

becos i feel like smiling.

dancing.

singing.

skipping.

laughing.

becos it feels like life.

becos i feel like running away sometimes.

how nice it would be just to pretend
i just want to
just want to
believe in your embrace once more.

to trust that it'll always be there for me
i'll keep waiting
i'm willing to wait
and i wun run away.

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i would like to love him
but my eyes are lying
maybe it's better to just lie and hide
i don't want our feelings to get complicated.

can someone give me an answer i want to hear?

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i know that neither of us is at fault
we just forgot to look back and think
making promises in the moments of love
which got lost in time.

i know that neither of us is wrong
it's just that it'll be better letting go
the best of our love..
let it continue in our memories.

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poetic, huh? *winks* (translated frm chi songs la, i not so talented. muahaha.)

think i gg crazy with all the stress le.

=)

=)

=)

all rite, i guess u got the hint.

heavenly.

lovely.

sweet.

wonderful.

glad.

happy.

god-sent.

love-sent.

come on.

smile.

no more forcing of things / events against their nature

no. more.

now all i have to do is to rmb tt.

major mistake. which now leads to me burning the midnite oil. again. in fact, im gg past midnite. it's like 1.56a.m. in the morning and i still haf 2-3 tasks to do. thk gdness my lesson tmr's at 12.30pm. so i can afford to wake up ltr. whew~ i'd even slp at the expense of food la. haha anw tmr onli got one tutorial for 2 hrs. then im done for the day.

no. supposedly done for the day. but noooooo~~~~ i still got an OBD discussion after the OBD tutorial. this can't be happening to me!! (little voice in head: oh but it is) shut up, u stupid annoying inner voice. nobody needs u but u're always there anw. and it's one of those rare incidents when 'always' isnt such a gd thing after all.

went all the way to sembawang today to give tuition. yes, on a wkday. y? becos i initially thought tt lydia (my tutee)'s exams were in nov, but it turns out tt her math paper 1 is this fri. and i onli learnt of tt fact last sat. so i can't possibly give her tuition only on sat. it doesnt make sense. as much as i hate travelling all the way to north frm the west (boon lay), i dun want her to fail, either. so there i was, giving her tuition. fortunately it wasnt such a drag since she was pretty much hanging in there fine with all the formulas. but i'm so so afraid tt she'll forget or panic or give up during the exam itself.

then aftr the tuition, i was supposed to collect blk fund with wen yang. as in, the remainder of it. but wen yang had some proposal he was waiting for/had to do, so we decided to collect it tmr nite instead. i was kinda glad, cos i thought i'd haf more time to finish my work. but in the end i watched grey's anatomy episodes. 2 episodes, to be exact. i couldnt help it. the first one left a cliffhanger. now i noe wat it feels like for readers when i leave a cliffhanger. to my dear readers: i'll promise to try to not do tt again. provided i start writing again. (haha)

anws. not much guilt felt though. since grey's was great. haha. oops. supposed to feel at least a tiiiiiny morsel of remorse, rite? oh wells. forget it.

gg out tmr to causeway pt to celebrate my dearest fren hui min's bd!! hopefully it'll be fun, but y does it haf to be soooo faaaaar?? becos i'm the onli one staying in hall??? it's soooo not fair!!!! but oh wells, at least i get to get away frm the bks for a while. (i noe perfectly well tt's juz an excuse, but i dun particularly care.)

exams in a mth's time!! mug!!!! xian lor. y is life full of mugging? even aftr graduation u'd still haf to 'mug'. in a diff way cos u're 'mugging' in work. sigh. freaking muggers. all of us.

all rite, need to do my stuff or else before i noe it, time will tick by silently and it'll be 12.30pm and time to go for my lesson alr.

haiz.

i wanna wake up with you
go to bed with you
and do everything in btwn with you.
-Danny Duquette-
-Grey's Anatomy-

we'll c where it goes frm here...

where we go frm here..

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