sux lor. aftr sending the hall application thingy they tell me tht cannot put the single room's add down becos of some shitty reason la. so now i put back my old room lor. but i still wrote down my preference of being allocated to a single room. so depends on where they wanna allocate me to lor. haiz. super xian lor these kinda things. the new system of hall allocation sux even more than the old point system la.

anw trying hard to study IT now. my gdness it. is. so. boring~~~ no wonder i'm feeling slpy~~~~ *slaps self awake* okie time to go back to studying. tmr is FM day again~~ argh!!! when'll this end???

woohoo~~~~~~~~ i'm done with biobiz le~~~ finally.

in a somewhat satisfied and contented mood. becos aftr tuition, i met my mummy at toa payoh to have dinner together. i miss her. and the family, too. because of the stupid tests next wk, i wun be gg home this wkend. xian. now left with the stupid IT proj research. gonna do it now. so i can concentrate on studying the rest of my FM.

whew. jiayou~~

whew. juz finished biz law tutorial. finally. seemed super long la. bloody 2 whole chapters to read. but the second chapter seemed so useless. FM done halfway. need to continue and finish up sem 10 and 11 then i'm done. dun understand sem 9 so need to ask john. then i'll most prob be ready for FM quiz next mon (which i haf a feeling it's gonna be damn hard) *crosses fingers* aftr which next thurs can start doing exam papers le. hopefully i wun be able to do them with much difficulty.

IT quiz. same day as FM quiz. need to read thru a bit. dun wanna be blur even though it's juz an online quiz. then there's acct. whoa need to catch up on tht. seems like aftr a/c receivable, i'm feeling more and more lost in the not-so-marvellous world of accting. seriously, and i'm most prob gonna do this when i work next time? sheesh. somebody help me.

at least i'm done with hw assignment. now trying to do biobiz. and get it over and done with. plus the IT proj research. better hurry and finish at least the biobiz before i rush off to tuition at toa payoh by 5pm. need to leave hall by 3.15pm, at least.

ok gonna do summary for first speaker first before having lunch. ciao~

oooo juz applied for single room. hopefully i get thru!! hmmm pts not v substantial, but... shld be all rite. i hope. getting karine's old room, cos according to my senior who lives beside karine, there's a PRC scholar staying in tht room now. but because she's a final yr student, i mite haf a higher chance of getting tht room. so... *fingers crossed*

hooray for more privacy. and the major deciding factor of switching frm single to double room is... the toilets!! haha yeah 4th floor toilets are definitely cleaner than the 3rd floor ones. probably cos less pple stay there. but aftr the 5th floor guy seniors move out, i bet it's gonna be a whole lot less happening. no more midnite suppers or cooking etc. plus the room i'm applying for is kinda far frm everything else, other than the toilets. haha. further from the pantry, laundry room and lounge. but hopefully it's worth it. and anw firstly i need to get the room before i start complaining or rejoicing. so there.

ooo abt to finish hw assignment 3 for accting. super lagging. supposed to do biz law tut 11 and acct tut 11 today. AND finish biobiz. but i had no idea exam supper was today. so had to go door-to-door (which in the end onli those pple i'm more close to came down - waste of effort, man) and needed to settle the pizzas and everything. but one gd thing abt pizzas is tht even though the quality aftr mass producing and aftr the delivery may not be tht gd, it's almost completely hassle-free. juz throw the boxes away can alr. haha so i kinda like it. got back almost half an hour ago.

but my real vice was the super long nap i took today aftrnoon la. dunno why but i was super tired. i'd tell u tht usually my nap lasts for abt an hour but i'd most prob be lying cos my naps usually last for 2 hours. but i slept for 2.30 to 6pm. which is.. quite substantial rest. even for me. oh well at least i dun feel tired now. mb i'll stay up a bit ltr tonight to finish my work.

hopefully. in life u juz gotta haf faith and hope, ain't it?

tmr reserved for fin mgmt. jiayou! few more wks left!!!!

before the party really starts.
(even with special sem and FOC prep. since the catering stuff's pretty much settled. juz need to do the proposal i suppose. =)

omg i can't believe i'm done with biz law!! now juz haf to send to francis le. then i'm done~~

BUT still must do acct tutorial. heard frm my fren tht it's quite simple. but oh wells. better start so can end earlier and mb go ahead of my schedule, which seldom happens, u knw. heehee

kenneth said can go ice-skating!! yay aftr holidays, vic n and i and a few more pple (bring a few cute guys along) and then we can go ice-skating at jurong entertainment centre. then opp got k-box alr!! haha can train ur vocal skills so can get A in the magic of voice elective!! (my fren got A in tht!) when ur exams end ar? but muz faster okie? cos vic gg to america then i'll miss her. she dun go i wun go either. :( haha

ooohhhhhhhh and my birthday is cooooomiiiiiing~~ wonder wht i haf in store for me!! yay~~~ but then again i'm going to be 20.. boohoo. halfway to forty (as lulu's brother put it) and not so incidentally, halfway to 'faulty' too. :(

oh wells. ganbatte ne~ jiayou~~

i feel kinda guilty.

didn't study much yst. oh no~~ wht will happen to my FM??

nvm i'm doing it now. i woke up earli today!! (well, earlier than usual) woke up at 9.30am lor.. to get a head start. so aftr bathing i sat down at my desk, stoned a bit and started work at 10.30am. it's 11.20am now and i wish i can get it over and done with soon.

haha seriously i think and realize tht as i grow older, my attention span grows shorter and shorter. like, i used to be able to sit at a desk and study for 6 hours straight. (o-level period) but now it's like, 2-3 hours at most. aftr tht i start zoning out. tsk tsk. bad thing to happen.

muz get used to not slping so much..

NOOOOOOOOOOOO. wht a nightmare.

xian. oh i've got a few links frm my fren. quite funny. so go check them out.

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF208-Eggnancy.jpg#196

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF196-Cover_Blown.jpg#185

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF103AD-Food_Fight.gif#172

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF083AD-Executive_Decision.jpg#152

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF090AD-The_Other_Girls.jpg#159

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF078AD-Slim.jpg#147

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=PBF054AD-Love_Lizard.jpg#123

http://pbfcomics.com/?cid=0PBF38032BC-Suicide_Train.jpg#40

i'm in NUS!! haha with my fren, in her lect. typing away in her laptop since it's a boring lect with a boring lecturer. like, it's on operations mgmt. hello?? so boring. it's even worse than the modules i'm taking now. but speaking of which, i need to get started on my FM, which is exactly why i'm in NUS in the first place. feel like an alien but thank gdness i lk like them. haha i mean, we all lk the same. probably. but the engine guys in NUS are sooo (no offense to anyone out there)... oh well let's juz say i'm glad tht i'm in NTU. haha.

Financial Management. i wonder when i'll ever get to understand that. ok so he's talking abt supply chain mgmt now. bored. guess i'll juz go back to my own notes and hopefully i dun get weird stares or get kicked out of the lect. how embarassing would tht be..

hm and i'm getting fat. seriously. need to go lose weight. but i so dun wanna run la. xian. i hate running. pple who knw me well shld knw tht too. can't i juz not eat? which i prob wun do becos my diet plans never seem to last more than a day. they always kick in for a day and the next day i'm eating normally again. and somehow even more. xian. guess i'll go for a jog soon.

once i feel like it. :)

i haven't felt this way in a very long time.

the feeling of holding your tears back.

telling myself not to cry and to be strong when in fact my heart's crumbling slowly, piece by piece.

hey! i just realized tht i achieved one of my new yr resolutions! ok, so tht was last yr's resolution, but nonetheless it's prob the onli one i've achieved so far.

i've become a happier person. :)

woohoo. so far.. left with IT term proj!! actually i realize tht this sem's so diff frm last sem. ok, so i didn't JUST realize that. but anw, it's like last sem was full of projs and deadlines. this sem oso got projs and deadlines, and the projs seem to be harder to complete than marketing. haha and marketing proj was kinda fun. it's juz loads of crap. making up ur own biz, u knw wht i mean. haha and then last sem, i left all my tutorials and lect notes till the end. this sem i'm still lagging a bit, but hey, at least i make a bigger effort and attempt to do more day-to-day revision lor. as in, at least i bother to do most of the tutorials. but FM's reli tough, half the time i haf no idea wht the lecturer's toking abt. and the textbk's equally confusing. no help at all la.

hopefully my acct proj turns out fine since our grp kinda rushed thru it. :S haiz, next thurs meeting naf, but then now they said need to haf fire drill exercise. i mean, wht the hell? i dun think i'm gonna cancel on naf anw. it's such a stupid thing to do, to cancel on a fren and to go for fire drill exercise. i mean, come on.

oooo n i need to settle the catering stuff. need to contact hall 4, hall 14 and another catering (cjs catering). been putting it off for a while due to sch work, but gonna do it on sunday. cos i'll be at home and can use the house phone (tht is, if it's finally working la. last wkend, my family and i were totally cut off frm the world. :S) using the house phone means cheaper phone bill. i mean, i dun pay it la, but i dun think it's nice to let my parents pay so much either.

speaking of which, i dun think i'll be staying in hall. next mon, i'm gonna tok to the hall office aftr my lessons and ask them if there's such a special thing as only letting me stay in july. cos i dun think i'm taking special sem (since frm my batch u haf to pay to take it), and therefore i think i'm gonna work for may and june.

not sure as wht, though. mb i'll juz stay at home and stone and watch cartoon network frm day to day. ooo spongebob. haha :P

i am so happy today.

haha i actualli watched a movie!! now dun laugh at me, but the last time i watched a movie before today was 1st of jan - death note 2. yeah. i mean, watch a movie as in really gg to the cinema theatre to watch a movie. instead of juz staying in hall all the time and watching it. which is cool, too, at times, if i dun fall aslp in bed first. haha. and staying in hall all the time is just so. not. healthy.

and i went out to haf dinner at this place called botak jones. it serves western food; it has two branches, one in ang mo kio and the other in clementi; the pricing's ok and the servings're kinda huge. haha but it's worth the money cos it reli tastes quite gd. i dun haf the no. with me, but if i ever rmb to get it, i'll put it up here. the queue can get pretty long, esp at dinner time (arnd 7pm) so u'll prob haf to wait 45 min to an hr for the food. but u can actualli pre-order it and collect it aftrwards. as in, call in and pre-order it. kinda like KFC and mac's, except tht they dun send it to ur doorstep. not bad for a place tht's situated in a kopitiam. all rite, demerit pts for the ambience, but hey, sometimes the food at nice lking places suck. so let's not give the place and ambience more credit than they deserve, shall we?

all righty, done with the food review and moving on to the movie review of the day.

the pursuit of happyness.

seriously. happYness. not happIness. and i juz realized it at the start of the movie, not even when i was paying for the tix at the counter. it's abt this guy (a true story btw) called chris gardner who worked his ass off at some stupid sales job selling some stupid bone density detector machine. and he has a whole bunch of them to sell. it's like an x-ray, just twice the price and a bit more convenient. he was behind in rent, bills, parking fines, taxes etc. whtever tht needs to be paid, he didn't pay them. so he was stuck in tht runt for more than a while. but then he got a chance. aftr hounding some guy from a stockbroker firm for a job, he got into the internship prog, which lasts for 6 mths. but no pay for tht 6 mths. u juz gotta work ur ass off for the company and hopes tht it hires u at the end of 6 mths. 1 out of possibly 25 interns to choose from. and he got the job in the end. he was so happy, he actualli teared. and will smith. wht more can i say? i'd say he's a pretty damn gd actor.

and his son wasn't bad either. tht's his real son acting in the show, btw. somehow i feel like i'm not doing the movie review enough justice. so bottom line is: hurry and go watch it. it's definitely worth the ticket and popcorn money. it'll even make u tear/cry. so girls grab ur tissue and guys, ask the girls out for this one instead of the scary movies that make her tear/cry/wail for the totally wrong reasons.

a few things i've learnt frm the movie tht i decided to take along with me tonight. tonight, cos i can onli hope i rmb them as time goes by. a lot of things went thru my head. but one stay stuck: happiness doesnt juz fall frm the sky and the way life works is: u juz may haf to give up so many other things, to sacrifice so many other things, to get tht one thing in life. and when u reli do get it, it may or may not be worth the sacrifice(s). but when it's not, u juz have to pick tht up and move on. and u can't tell urself tht u can't afford to sacrifice anymore. becos u can. and u must.

and mb one day, possibly one day, it'll all be worth it.

if you never appear again
nth in my world would seem valuable again
it's a pity there's so little time
to let us test out
this idea of forever

the more i think, the more i miss you
the more my heart beats for you, the more it breaks
still i wonder
who you would belong to in the end

my sky today looks a little gray
my heart reflects the season of falling leaves
i don't really know how to survive tonight
every light of my life seems to be put out

if you never did appear
maybe i will be a little happier
it's a pity that time has to be so cruel
to kill every promise bit by bit

yes, baby, say it out loud.

i am so P-R-O-U-D of myself! i went thru two quizzes and two assignments in a wk!! now i'm done for the wk!! yes, the work may not stop there.. BUT at least i can relax for a while for the time being!! woohoo~~ tmr muz start on financial mgmt le.. T8 and review lect 8. then thurs to sunday muz study for the acct mid term test next tues. whoa a whole 15%, man. better work hard for tht. 1 and a half hours. my fren said shld haf journal entry worth 40 marks as last qn. tsk tsk. how torturous. yay now can play a bit of my sims 2.

even though yst (i confess) i played a bit oso la. haha bio biz and biz law.. sayounara~~~haha and it is spelled that way. not the sayonara that we always seem to be spelling. at least, tht is if i rmb my jap correctly la.

speaking of which, cindy was toking abt some special sem during the hols. since i didnt apply for the GSS (global summer studies) in the end, i mite as well work during the hols. but now tht there's a special sem, if they offer jap, i'll juz study and finish off one of my unrestricted electives during one mth. instead of taking one sem. hahaa. but i dunno how it goes. gtg find out more abt it. and need to tok to jane soon. think she gg NY lei. 9 days to NY - according to her nick. hmmm i wanna ask her abt SIA. hopefully they still need someone there. some temp stuff tht does practically nth. for a mth oso can lor. hahaha. :P

WHEW~~~~~~~~

CO CONCERT.... FINALLY OVER!!!!!!

hmmm no more intensive practises over at the damn Nanyang House. woopeeeeeeeeeeeee.

but now, time to catch up on all the sch work i've been putting off. my bio biz proposal (45%) and my biz law assignment (20%). the two most pressing issues rite now. then i can worry abt my IT (10%) and acct (2%) quizzes. argh.

next thurs, fri and sat still need to work at the Creative IT fair. xian. but lk on the bright side, i get $$ for it!! or whtever's remaining la, aftr FOC canvassing. it's seriously blood (or rather, money) sucking la. haiz.

i. am. so. PISSED.

i can't believe kellie (my sectional leader) actualli made me come down for prac earli in the morn at 10.30am (ok mb not so earli, but still!) and in the end all i did was sit at the side while they practiced a song i wasn't playing for the concert. i mean, i knew they were practising tht since 9am, tht's y she asked and i decided to come down 10.30am to practise some other songs. they finished practising at 12 and then the teacher left. i mean, wht the hell? means i sat there for nth. and kellie actualli said we were gg to practise other songs, even though without the teacher.

count me out of it. i knw it's not easy on her to be the sectional leader and all and i knw attendance is somehow so very impt, but come on, make a more accurate estimate and at least inform me at 10am whether 10.30am's a gd time for me to go down. if u knw tht the progress is so slow and lousy, then dun make me go down there in the rain for nuts. ok?

wht a complete waste of my time.

now i'm back in hall and trying to do my biz law assignment. to no avail. it's so difficult. i dun even knw how to start writing tht report. sent said tht mb it's becos they're scared so they're practising a bit more. aftr all, the concert's on sat. i understand and tht's totally cool with me. i mean, i can't say i'm the best player but i'm definitely not the worst. i do my part and i practise whenever i can. so give me a break, cut me some slack. becos i'm scared too. i'm scared of my deadlines more than i'm scared of the concert on sat. i'm scared of my biobiz proposal, my biz law assignment, my 2 tests next wk and everything else. so freaking scared.

i used to like CO. now i dread it almost everytime i'm abt to go there. it's not supposed to be like tht. it's as if i almost freaking hate it.

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