.Sunday, March 19, 2006 Y
'tis another day..
i hate this. my nails are in a mess. they're too short for their own good. seriously. now, instead of being able to type faster, i'm making even more mistakes than i used to make. i noe, it doesnt reli make sense, but it's the way it is rite now. yucks.
it's the fault of those fake nails. haiz nvm. i dun think i'm ever putting them on again. now my fingers look so short. n stubby. hate them. makes everything lk ugly la.
i can't explain this, but i've been having this weird sensation in my chest all day. well, wouldnt reli call it a sensation..but just.. a sorta dread, i guess. i wonder why.. hm.. like smth's bad abt to happen or smth. which is stupid, cos despite the horrible day yst, today started out with a pretty beautiful morning. plus i got to c kira in gundam seed destiny. hm.
i'm halfway thru my SMU application and i realize tt i'm not as serious as i shld be when it comes to my applications. like, i haven't exactly sat down n thought abt wat i reli wanna put as first choice or second choice or any other choice after tt, for tt matter. hm. i'm putting accountancy for all 3 schools ntu, nus and smu. but after that.. i dunno wat to put le. so silly la.
one CCE(cabin crew executive) at work told me to think twice abt studying accountancy. i was preparing myself for another shock (note the word 'another') like how there were so many pple she knew applying for tt course. i mean, i've been told so many times tt there are a lot of pple trying out for accountancy. come on, my grades aren't fantastic. i noe tt, if not y the hell am i worrying so much?? in the end, the CCE just said, oh cos the pple i noe who've taken it end up very stressed.
i simply lked at her and before i could laugh out harshly, i managed a small smile at her. i mean, come on. tt's like, the LAST thing on my mind la. stress. hah. as if i'll start worrying abt stress all of a sudden when i almost nvr haf. wait, i nvr haf worried abt stress. rite now, all i'm worrying abt is getting into the course i want. hopefully, at ntu.
anw, as i said, i'm halfway thru my application for SMU and i'm only putting down 2 choices: accountancy and business. the other 3 choices.. i dunno.
then i haf to start writing the stupid essay abt myself. i mean, come on, it's so silly la. u mean they read every single essay meh? i mean, they're juz gg to glimpse thru. i dun haf much to show off to them anw. first of all, i dun haf SAT scores. secondly, i'm juz a member of the ajco.
well on the brighter side of life, i haf a platinum award for community service.
oh dun make me laugh.
why can't i find my only shred of hope
then again
i don't know why i even think i have that
